THE DARK NITE

its midnite!!! i have no plans for sleeping yet..i wonder y nites r so painful for me especially???earlier nite seems to be so "relaxing n rejuvenating"..ego left when sun is setting and pure consciousness is attained..i was in deep synchronicity with myself few years back..but now i m arbitrating my ego n self esteem to reach some conclusion.i have pampered both of them a lot.."get over plzzzz".i m being little nostalgic at this time.. on the contrary nite helps me witnessing myself completely unidentified with all this "ephemeral"::i m aware that real search is not for ephemeral but eternal.!!!!