we kicked our day at reference library..our classroom's ac is out of service these days..since we have been put up at 5th floor close to library..issliye we r constant visitors over there..keertika came up with idea of going out..n we nodded in reply..decided to attend java n architecture's lecture first.we reached "mgf" after hectic ride in bus..ate something n started playing at the food court only.."TRUTH N DARE"..cant believe u guys..nobody was ready to take truths..i also confined myself to dare..i was made to smooch/kiss manequine ..then ask a guy for a drink..i negiotiated n completed my dare successfully..we were all giggling n rolling over each other..i guess our new memeber "vabby" was also having fun..suddenly a lady with "offshoulder" onepiece joined us..boyzz started staring n stalking..critcized her like anything.we spent hours gossiping..like who's the best or who's not type.contemplating n trying to put our views together..this was all seems to be very humurous..now the climax:: i decided to try my hands at smoking along with punit."CLASSIC"..he lit the cigratte for me n started explainig...i have to take all smoke inside..n slowly belch it out!! it was like "kapalbhatti" or something..felt choked n vomitted..the whole experience of litting a cigrattee was very appaling n ardous for me
punit was  bantering me continously..i blustered n moved out of that khopcha. i didnt felt nice about it..so wont be taking any risks now..after sometime we joined rest of our members..they left for college..akansha n me decided to wait for cab !!!

TOKEN OF GESTURE::FUNKY GROUP..

"FUNKY GIRLS"..thats what mansi came up while we were having "choole bature" at biccano(nostalgic)..anywayz moving on..the "GROUP" comprises of 4 lovely gals including me offcourse..lets discuss
the most previous member ."MANSI"..i found her conceited,rouge n snobbish in our first encounter.after spending some time with her i realised that she is extremely sappy(sentimental)..can do wonders with clothes rite from rs.50 janapath sorts to 1000 bugs one pieces..lolzzz..she accessorised herself really well..keep disturbing me during exam time since she is my exam buddy(dont be offended now)..harworking ,self dependent..when we retreat back home 4m college feeling tired n ready to take our beds..she is busy making money somewhere..gal u never get tired noo!! happily committed with her love for last 5 years.
"DHRUV" (her boyfriend) ne yeh kaha ..woh kaha..keep boring me alwz..cant forget those days when we spent hours talking "WASTE STUFF"..i hope u remember.."JESUS CHRIST"..(ACTIONS)she is never sluggish n turgid..alwz accord with my thuts n perceptions. i love the way u speak "PRESENT SIR"(sorry!!! cant get the accent). i have seen her laughing n crying as well..sometimes jealous of her authenticity..it seems she patented the " genuineness"..bahut taarif ho gayi.. on the contrary u dont deserve better results than me.okk!!i do found u "DUMB" for voting sunny rai as "BEST PERSONALITY"...ohhcomeon!!!! how could u think of it in ur "WILDEST DREAMS"..

ARCHITECT OF BEHAVIOUR

I dont know how to treat people anymore..sometimes i hurt them so easily.."emotions r only  blend of few harmones " 4 me.lets not get into biology but only stick to philosophy..i value my relationship with dad,mom,friends,mentors n superclose "nani"..but not sure that i will successfully put an end to them.i m on a binge of hurting people.some of my personal experience in understanding homo sapien's behaviour is bitter.instances would help..dad is lecturer..he works 16 hrs daily..truely dedicated n sincere..once an inspirational soul..but after sometime i find him too "ambitious"..mom is hardworking housewife who scarificed all her degree's to nurture us in every aspect but then "too religious n spiritual" to be understood..friends r no different..punit (ignorant),keertika(complicated) n akansha(innocence)..dear bhagu!!
y do we have to combat with our emotions everyday..no monotony at all..i enjoy being blank,no mind,pessismist..love to cry all the times for no reasons..stay alone in some shell forever..but i can't..should i leave to my mind or my heart..dont know..now the solution from writer:: nobody can be tryanny of her emotions.chronically be meticulous of ur emotions..cant make whole world happy at same time..respect other's emotions..try ur level best to inculcate justice to them..dont let "dragon of ego" encroached..never let ur emotions hibernate..keep experimenting to believe ..thanx

THE CAT RACE

I planning to change my stream!!!i have developed unbounded carving for english n hindi literature..software,processor blah..blah.. r not my cup of tea..when i will confront my dad
on this in my wildest dreams,he would retaliate stating "mujhe tumhare ghar mein roti chahiye".
lolzzz..i will make a "horrendous" engineer who will deport every company out of this world only..
god forbid i m not made for corporate job..couldnot take pressure of killing ur ethics n "compromising
 to stand among "elite" groups..who knows??? i may have aptitude for "lecturership"..naah..itna
patience kahan se aayega..human never have any monotony in life so do i.."a true homo sapiens"..
"MBA" is another option..money..money  n more money..thats not me..lets discard this option as well
how about an "IAS" exam..bihar blood is finally boiling!!!i m n will never be ready for this huge
responsiblity..(real truth:: scared of failing in such a long process)..may be masters in "nanotechnology","bioinformatics"...


clearly "man proposes n god disposes"..i m  an insipid..life is inscrutable..epitomising the whole discussion..i have an avid love for classical  dance,theatre which i wanna portraiy through our literature.but phir"roti" beech mein aa jati hain !!!

THE POOJA MALHOTRA'S LECTURE

"SAMAJH AAYA"...thats what she spit out everytime explaining concepts of "database management system".Miss Malhotra did her mtech from"NATIONAL PHYSICS LABORATARY",DELHI.Thats quite an achievement and could be worth" admiring dream" for budding engineering like us.She is clearly nebolous and never coveted by anybody.I prefer talking/chatting/gossiping with my three"musketeers"inspite of listening to her intellectual "subject talks".She was busy portraiying "ER" diagram n relationship on board..we were busy contemplating our personal relationships.out of somewhere she made "PUNIT" stand and take over her talks.He was blank and stood stooped.Pervasive silence spread throughout the class.she moved on telling us"ATTENDANCE NAHIN DUNGI"..We absolved every teacher from hurting n interrupting our gossips.She noticed again n again..when situation seems to be aggravated..made us move out of the class.We were nostalgic about moving out of class "13" times in a row..My musketeers vindicated me against everybody..our frienship is "naive","pristine",astary(far away from adulteration of studies)..lolzz..once shakespeare told that "all that live must die",passing through nature n eternity but not our friendship...nobody n nothing helped me more to realise the futility of life than "3" of u..i hope to stay close till life n time allows..love u for everything!!!!

THE DARK NITE

its midnite!!! i have no plans for sleeping yet..i wonder y nites r so painful for me especially???earlier nite seems to be so "relaxing n rejuvenating"..ego left when sun is setting and pure consciousness is attained..i was in deep synchronicity with myself few years back..but now i m arbitrating my ego n self esteem to reach some conclusion.i have pampered both of them a lot.."get over plzzzz".i m being little nostalgic at this time.. on the contrary nite helps me witnessing myself completely unidentified with all this "ephemeral"::i m aware that real search is not for ephemeral but eternal.!!!!

my first page

i dont know how to start!!!this all seems so formal n nerve flinching.i m  an anarchist of  my emotions rite now..i hope to carry on.people abdomished me about difficulty of pouring ur views n ideas without affecting ur surroundings..but i m ready to take risk..