i have been learning classical music for over a year now.mom is really keen and interested in music n arts.she constantly pushes me to participate in every gala event.i still remember that how mum n dad forced me  to sing "bhajans" and "shiv shrotra" during our diwali puja.all of a sudden,one day ,she introduced me to dad's friend who taught music at some school in delhi.she escorts me to music class and tolerate my humming as well.i never had confidence to sing on the larger platform.but this time i auditioned for solo singing for my college fest.i prepared ""rag darbari"(classical khayal) under the guidance of mom n music teacher. mom was happy and so do i.she wished me luck early in the morning and her eyes were carmalized with affections and expectations.next day,when i saw others buzzing over western claasical,decided to move back.sooner realised mum back home must be waiting for an answer,i cannot let her down.i tried my best to impress judges with classical hymns.a dear friend messeged me abt my selection next morning.music faculty told me to prepare "saraswati vandana" for the inaugurals.i couldnt find song anywhere and was deluded of loosing this one gloden opportunity.suddenly hope dimmed by music sir and we both prepared song whole heartedly.infinite emotions were sailing in the ocean of my heart.the stage was set for the big day.while retreating back to college,i had a tiff with my younger brother.i couldnt control my temper and he retailated by hitting me on my eyes.this aftermath was enough to force me into negativity once again.i cried like baby who is stuck in the cocoon of negaitivities!!!after a day or two of self realisation and support from other friends,came to realise that it came as a benefit in a form that i will come to realise  that anger is prickle in attaining absolute happiness.i just cant chickened out from every situation.it is extremely hard to sustain faith n look for positivity in ur tthick times.but i do have debt of grattitude to some supreme law for making me feel confident and self satisified after long time!